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Dec. 27th, 2006 @ 04:18 pm absolutely unacceptable
Not that tons of people actually read my journal, but seriously I was looking at my previous posts and in the year of 2006 I updated like 5 times! The last time I updated was in July... absolutely ridiculous.

In my last entry I was about to move. I'm living with Michelle and things have been going suprisingly well - not that I expected them to be worse or anything, I just struggled a bit with my previous roomie at times. Michelle and I must click better, we haven't had any big issues. About three days after we moved me - we moved my sister out of her house and since then she's gotten divorced. If you know my family this is a pretty big deal. At least it is to me. I think she's happier, but at the same time how can it not make you feel crappy? She's a strong woman though - the things she's done and will do I can only admire and respect and I seriously give her so much credit for stepping out of a situation that wasn't good for her.

I got a promotion at work and love my new job. I still work in the same place but get paid a lot more to do different things. I hope it continues to go well.

Enough for now, I have to go :)
Jul. 20th, 2006 @ 09:38 pm every pot has a lid...
Current State of Mind: drained
It has been so fucking long since I've actually updated this thing. I wish I could say it's because I've had SO much going on, but in reality... well, I've just been lazy.

The end of my first semester of grad school came and went quite quickly and I'm super glad it did. I don't know what it was, but this past Winter/early Spring was awful. I had major depression. I didn't eat well, or work out, or anything good for me. It took me awhile to really adjust to grad school. And the whole situation/relationship with Jesse went down. We recently had a good talk about things - things we should have said while it was all going on, but for one reason or another we didn't. He actually has a new girl in his life, which I'm super happy about. He really is a great guy - you know, the kind of guy that you'd want for yourself (or in my case, he just wasn't for me) or your best friend.

I've had a few things going on in the boy department in the last 2 months. I'm not exactly sure how it will all work out, but hey - it's fun even when it doesn't.

I'm in the process of moving. Tonight the fam - minus Louis, which might actually be the way it'll be from now on - came down and helped me move all my big stuff to the new place. I'm still in my old apartment tonight. Mostly because I want my room put together before I stay the night there. AND Michelle's been dating a boy for the past few weeks and he's visiting tonight - I have no clue where they're at physically... I want to give them their space since I know it'll be a big deal for Michelle if it progresses.

I'm tired. I'm done for now.
Apr. 16th, 2006 @ 08:43 am no more cameoflauge
Current State of Mind: determined
Current Tunes: The Scene Aesthetic
I have no idea how long it's been since my last real update - months at least. The only reason why I'm updating now is that I need a break from working on my paper. I think that may be the number one reason why anyone updates their journal, procrastination.

I don't really know what to update about. Day to day nothing seems different and then one day you realized that everything has changed. It's like I know there's stuff to write about here - things that have changed, things that are currently going on or about to begin, but I just can't think of them.

Grad school is bad for your health. If any of you out there are thinking about it, don't make the decision lightly. I don't regret mine... more than once a day. Well, not really regret, question is a better word. At least once a day I wish I just had a job and a set schedule. I seriously think that I've skipped more class this semester than I ever have before - and it's not because I hate going to my classes (somedays I do, but only one of them) it's because if I don't get the reading done it's completely useless for me to go. It's not like in undergrad where you can skate by until the exam and then half-cram the reading in the night before. Absolutely not. Anyway, if I survive the next 2 weeks (when, I mean, OBVIOUSLY I'll survive them, but I mean successfully) I'll be happier than ever - I'm ready for the summer to start. I'm not taking any classes. Just working and I plan on doing it a lot. There won't be much else to do. Molly won't be living at the apartment so it'll be lonely to be there so I'll have to come up with a hobby a.k.a. working out - I plan on doing that a lot as well.

The only other thing I can think of to write about is Jesse. I haven't seen him since we got back from Spring Break and I went to a party at Paul's and he was there. Somewhat awkward, but he didn't think so so I suppose as long as one of us thought it was fine then it'ss okay. Basically all I can say is that I'm really happy I ended things when I did (I won't even get into how since that was a mess) if I was dealing with that now when I have SO much other stuff to do, well, I definitely would be suicidal (that's not something to joke about, I apologize, because I AM joking).

Alright, I think that's enough for now, I should be back to my paper.
Feb. 14th, 2006 @ 12:58 pm this is fun!!
http://kevan.org/johari?name=nevaeh3219
Feb. 12th, 2006 @ 11:34 am RaNDomNESs
Current State of Mind: cynical

procrastination )

Dec. 16th, 2005 @ 01:32 pm hehe... am i really naughty? or nice?
Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

Last Thursday I turned [info]jenkbp in for running naked in the mall (3 points). In January I saved a busload of nuns in Angola (326 points). Last Monday [info]cheriebaby and I donated clothes to the needy (11 points). In March I put money in [info]coco_fefe's expired parking meter (14 points). In August I helped [info]behindthescene hide a body (-173 points).

Overall, I've been nice (181 points). For Christmas I deserve a toy train!

Sincerely,
nevaeh3219
Write your letter to Santa! Enter your LJ username:
Dec. 8th, 2005 @ 10:50 pm RaNDomNESs
Current State of Mind: sleepy
I'm going to do a year in review of my subject titles too - they are more interesting, sadly :(

January:
I thought I could always choose if I wanted you around....

February:
it's my time

March:
At least 30 of these are true for OE!

April:
No news is good news... but i have NEWS instead!

May:
Randomness

June:
I'm excited I figured this out!!!

July:
seriously, how much sleep did i get last night?

August:
graham cracker band

September:
blah

October:
don't say anything - you'll ruin it.

November:
Courtesy of ESther!!

December:
I'm really too lazy for a real update :)
Dec. 8th, 2005 @ 10:38 pm I'm really too lazy for a real update :)
Current State of Mind: happy
Go to your Calendar and find the first entry for each month of 2005. Post the first line of it in your journal, and that's your "Year In Review".

January
Happy New Year!

February
You are Brigitte Bardot

March
Aquarius - Your Love Profile

April
It has been quite a while since I last updated so this might be quite long.

May
The Keys to Your Heart

June
It's been muy long since I last updated, I apologize.

July
I think I slept a total of about 20 minutes last night and I'm pissed about it.

August
so, it's been so long since I've actually updated this thing.

September
So, it's Thursday.

October
It's been quite awhile since I've really had time to update, but I've stumbled upon some for the moment so I figured I'd make use of it.

November
1. First grade teacher's name: Miss Kelley - damn, those were the days...

December
** Believe it or not I haven't updated in December yet** I'm guessing when I do it'll say something about it's been so long since my last update, yada yada yada... I'm going to try harder not to start my LJ entries that way.
Nov. 30th, 2005 @ 05:54 pm RaNDomNESs
How you really say "I love you." by lenatheraven
Name
...believe in true love?
Your hands sayWith me, you'll never be lost.
Your eyes sayI'm so lucky.
Your hugs sayThis is where you are meant to be.
Your kisses sayYou mean the world to me.
Your body saysI want to wake up beside you.
Your heart saysJe t'aime.
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Nov. 27th, 2005 @ 12:42 pm RaNDomNESs
Current State of Mind: working
Current Tunes: Faith

Before I do a serious update I thought I'd do a fun survey :)

 

the secret of life...  )

Nov. 16th, 2005 @ 11:33 am my throat hurts :(
Current State of Mind: distressed
i have enough time for a very quick update.

1. i'm done. reciprocation means that both people do it and since i'm usually the one to give or try and you are not, screw you. if you aren't sure who this is aimed at and think that it might be you, it probably is because there is definitely more than one of you out there.

2. on a happy, happy note my week from hell is slowly starting to recede and by Thursday at 4:20 pm it will be over, the weekend will be here, and Katie and I will be headed north - i'm so excited to have some fun! AND i have a family thanksgiving on sunday!! double yay for a good weekend!

3. if by some miracle you are one of the few that both read this and call my cell phone (i highly doubt any of you are, but just in case you've tried this week) expect to find it off until Thursday afternoon. I need to conserve minutes and focus on all the shit I have to get done. it's not you, it's me - i swear i'm not screening.

annnnnd...

4. the boys. this past weekend i pretty much spent it with jesse and it put a lot of things into perspective for me. chris and i are going to silver bells in the city on friday, i'll update more then.
Nov. 14th, 2005 @ 10:51 pm this could be fun
Current State of Mind: busy
If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't
speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be
anything you want - good or bad. When you're finished, post this little
paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people
remember about you.
Oct. 20th, 2005 @ 10:18 am I REALLY should be studying...
Current State of Mind: thirsty

7 Deadly Sins )

Oct. 20th, 2005 @ 09:47 am Stolen from Mama Jen :)
Current State of Mind: amused
Your Alias Should Be:

Laney Phoebe




Your Ideal Marriage Proposal Is

A Christmas proposal, with lots of snow and city lights.




Your 80s Heartthrob Is

Jason Bateman




Your Vibe Is Somewhat Sexy

On a good day, you're the sexiest woman in the world
But on a bad day, you can't help but feel a little average
Try to remember the times you've felt the sexiest...
And keep that attitude even on the worst of days
Oct. 13th, 2005 @ 11:28 am it's almost beyond my control..
Current State of Mind: weird
Today is a big day.

I am turning my graduate school application in.

AND

I have job interview.

Complete craziness.

I have been in the weirdest funk lately and I hope this weekend helps get me out of it.

That is all.

Enjoy your Thursday.
Oct. 10th, 2005 @ 09:02 am i wish i had a hat and gloves...
Current State of Mind: cold
A few things I forgot to mention.

I saw Shaina last weekend. She came down for the U of M game. We chatted for a few, made tentative plans to hang out later that night, and then I got blown off. What's new.

While at the Mill on Saturday we partook in some wine tasting in the winery room. I bought some awesome sparkling peach stuff and some hard apple cider. Combine these with the 2 bottles that I drank Friday night and you'll see I'm becoming a lush, I don't even think I actually LIKE wine. :) Oh yeah, and my parents were at the Mill at the same time as we were, but we didn't see them. I saw their van, but I didn't walk over to check it out - I mean, Maggie being in the car would be a dead giveaway.


I can't think of anything else - it's too damn cold on the 7th floor of the Capital View Building!! :( and i'm tired.

have a great monday.
Oct. 9th, 2005 @ 08:30 am don't say anything - you'll ruin it.
Current State of Mind: cold
Current Tunes: death cab for cutie..
It's been quite awhile since I've really had time to update, but I've stumbled upon some for the moment so I figured I'd make use of it. This is gonna be crazy since it's been a few weeks...


2 weekends ago I was home for 2 reasons. One, I was hired to take pictures at a wedding reception and two, it was carriage days. I watched the parade on saturday and then had breakfast with Amanda and then watched the game with my dad until it was time to get ready for the reception. The reception ended up being really fun even though I wasn't an official guest. I like to do weddings/receptions for people that I know - it makes it a lot more fun. After I was done there I headed home to change and then walk down to the bar. It was great! In East Lansing for about 8 bucks you can get INTO a bar and have maybe A drink. For 8 dollars in Ovid I got wasted :) Had I paid for everything for myself I probably would have spent about $20, but when there are nice boys like Tony, Will, Art, and Bird... well as long as there are nice boys to buy me drinks I'll be nice and drink them :) Anyway, fun was had by me if not all and the night ended with me stumbling home by myself (only in Ovid would I do this and even then I walked super fast) When I got home, I quietly made myself something to eat and my bulldog showed up to keep me company - she scared the hell out of me, but of course helped me eat my hamburger in my bed :)

Nothing eventful last week happened. So that's not really a major development and this past weekend was the U of M game. Unless you live under a rock you already knew that. Miss Jenny and I were the lucky one's and got to be on duty!! Hooray for us! Friday after working a pretty long day I went over to Katie's and got ready to go out. She went with me out to Capstone to see Adam - he was having a bunch of people over and I haven't seen him in over a year, not since I moved out of the dorms. He seriously has almost achieved Kevin-like status in the sense that I love him to death and I always will. Even when he was a girlfriend. Especially when he was one, cuz I know he's happy and that makes me happy. Anyway, he and I ended up sweeping the room in beer pong - we couldn't be beat. After a few games (which I probably consumed no more than 2 beers, that's how good we are) Katie and I left to go find her boy Dave. That was a nightmare - he didn't know where the fuck he was trying to end up so we couldn't park to walk. We eventually found him and I went in and had one drink with her. Saturday I had to work and then went to tailgate over by the MSC tower - that's my dad's spot. AMO took over the tailgate though - there was a hella lot of food. I stayed there for awhile and then wandered up to Grand River to find Katie. We watched the game at some random house, but there was a tv which was all I cared about. After we lost I went home and napped then got up and got ready to go out. I ended up at Kevin's pretty late and chilled there for a little bit. I was getting really weird vibes from Holly though.... hmmm, I'll have to think more on that.

This past week was seriously awesome and at the same time not. It started with the GRE on Monday which went pretty good - I suppose. It's over and I don't have to think about it again for quite a while. It felt great when it was done - it was like something had been pushing down on me for so long and then all of a sudden it let up. Then I started to stress cuz I had a paper due in one of my classes on Thursday that I had to research for. Never fear though, I pulled it off. It just got better every day closing in on the weekend.... which I was majorly looking forward to. Friday night was Meg's bachelorette party and Katie went with me. I also got to hang out with my sister and it feels like its been ages since that happened. Anyway, we went to Grand Rapids on a party bus and went to a few bars. It was pretty fun. 'met' a guy I suppose. A few actually. None that I'll ever see again so basically it was fun to hang out with them, and Jason bought me a drink so free drinks are always good. I think the only reason I was included though was because Katie was with me and I kinda got included by default, but whatever. Saturday I woke up and was actually very productive - I cleaned the apartment (it needed a deep cleaning, I've been to busy to do anything for 2 months and it was starting to bother me), went to the mall, and worked out. Then I got ready and went to the cider mill. Here's the story of the cider mill. There's this guy. Dan. And he's great, I'm really interested in getting to know him better - but he's so hard for me to read. I suppose I can take that as he's not into me at all? It's supposed to be easy, and in some ways it is - but in others it's not, I'm so confused. Well, I invited him to go; a whole group went actually so it isn't classified as a date, just our first time hanging out, I guess. Anyway, I had a ton of fun and Chris met us there with a classmate of his, who was very nice. I'm so glad I got to see him, I wish he were studying here at state so I could see him more, but I get to see him (hopefully) again this weekend. I'm now at work this morning and have to work again this afternoon, but I think I might be either having lunch or dinner with Amanda which makes me happy, she was supposed to go to the mill with us yesterday but then ended up not.

All I have left with this Grad school app is my personal statement - the bulk of it is done, I just have to edit and revise. Which I could be doing, but I still have a while at work left - and I have another shift this afternoon so it'll get done. Anyway, that will be getting turned in this week which I'm looking forward to. I'm going through a schedule change this week - which will be welcomed. I think. I won't have any late nights!! I'll be done every day at 4:20 leaving me ample time to work out and study and do whatever the heck I want :) Plus I just applied for another job, seasonally of course, I think I'd die with 2 jobs at the moment. But over xmas break I'm going to have enormous amounts of free time. I'll have my afternoons and nights free. I may as well work instead of sit on my ass. And I thought Molly was going home to sub, but after something she said the other night it made me think differently, but who knows.

This weekend will be fun. Friday I'm going to visit Michelle and we might go see Kyler. James is over that way too, I hope I see him too :) Saturday is Tony's birthday so I'm going to be seeing him - and Sheena and hopefully Chris (get back in time to come back up - invite your friend, chad ;))and then Sunday I'm having dinner with Eric and Travis (and maybe others? - where's brock? maybe kevin?) so I'm pretty excited about that if it works out.

I'm sorry this was so long. Tough.

P.S. Down with Midterms - they should be against the law :)
Sep. 20th, 2005 @ 11:47 am almost done!!
Sharpie markers (assorted colors) - $7.99
1500 index cards - $15.00
doing well on my GRE and getting funding - priceless
Sep. 15th, 2005 @ 09:36 am poised for flight
Current State of Mind: cheerful

So, it's time for an update.

Last weekend I dog-sat and I wish I could say it was worth it. It really wasn't because I had to work 2-6 both Saturday and Sunday and then Saturday I came in before work to tailgate so I was really only at their house for a very short time. I got paid pretty well though, so I won't complain. I'm staying with them again this weekend and it should be pretty relaxing... it's the first weekend in over a month that I haven't had to work and I currently only have tentative plans with Amanda on Saturday. The thing I'm excited most about though, is sleeping in!! :) :)

Yes, I did tailgate BEFORE coming to work, but I was responsible about it... I didn't show up drunk or pass out during my shift. In fact, I wasn't even buzzed. I went to my papa's tailgate again - he had an almost even better spot than the first game, he was still within throwing distance of the stadium gates, but instead was in the shade almost directly under the MSC smokestack - I only had a few beers and ate some lunch, it was fun - I even made rice krispie treats for it! I managed to stay just long enough to see Derek, Evan, and Nicole show up and leave in time to be right on time for work. It's funny that I have friends' who I see randomly at stuff like that b/c they either just show up or their dad's or grandpa's tailgate with mine.

School's been pretty good. I hope this doesn't jinx me, but I've kept up with ALL of my reading for ALL of my classes and I hope it stays that way. It would be awesome to go to all my classes and do all the reading for my last semester as an undergrad, I've never mangaged it before and it's quite a lofty goal, but we'll see how long it sticks. My intership is starting to rock. On Monday we had a press conference at the capitol and that was pretty cool and then yesterday I got my first big assignment. I have to propose and design an addition to a website. I'm not really big on the drawing/designing of it, cuz I'm not so good with the markers... but I have tons of ideas on what to do so I just have to do it. I also have to walk a pretty good ways from where I park (if any of you have driven 496 East or West I walk from a block before MLK to the capital) but the weather's nice right now so I'm not complaining - it's actually quite nice - a bit of excercise in the morning for me and my pedometer and I get to just 'be' for about 20 minutes with my music. For the next week though, I'm w/out my music :( I gave my faux-pod to mi madre to take with her and my dad to Hawaii - she was so cute requesting what music she wanted on it :)

The boy I met at Courtney and Jenny's party back in August has fallen back into my atmosphere - which is a welcome surprise, but who knows how much of my world he'll be a part of... I talked with him last night after I got home from the bar, I think I remember what I said - I HOPE I remember ALL that I said :)

I did go out last night with Mama Jen and Molly and I'm really glad I did. I could have spent the night slaving over my GRE notecards, stressing that I'm never going to get through them in time (which, I'm not), but I didn't - I met them at the Post for dinner and a drink and then at 8ish we wandered over to Rick's for half-off Ladies night where there was NO line :) That is such a high deciding factor in my book on where to go. We just drank and chilled there for awhile, Chaz showed up, and then Katie, I ran into Doja and it felt like everyone from my classes was there, too. Then I went to get popcorn and guess who was working! Drew Dawson - haven't seen the kid in ages and there he is - it was fun to see him. After I'd danced a little bit and drank a little more, I went home for bed - I've been at work since 7 this morning and I can tell I went out last night :( but it was worth it and I had a great time! Thanks ladies!! P.S. As we were sitting at the bar and older gentleman, who turned out to be the owner, bought us a shot - well I guess he gave us a shot considering he own's the place, but whatever... anywho, we unfortunately didn't sit close enough to him to chat him up - Erica May and her friend did and before he left he told the waitress that he was buying for them! Like the whole night! Damn those whores!! :)

Story time!

1. On sunday I went to my parent's house to help with random jobs - while at tailgate I mentioned I was helping my mom cover the pool and my dad asked if I could clean the hot tub. Now, when my dad ASKS something, he's really not asking, but I pretended like he was and told him I could. My father is the kind of man that it's SO easy to piss him off that you spend most of your time trying to keep him not mad - it's too hard to make him happy to aim for that. But, every once in awhile there's something that you know will make him happy and if it's easy to do - like cleaning the hot tub - you say, yeah - I can do that. So - I'm at home doing all this stuff, cleaning the hot tub, taking the ladder off the pool (which you have to crawl under the dirty, icky deck to do), and covering the pool when the unthinkable happens... Maggie jumped in the pool. First of all, Bulldogs can't swim. Second of all, Maggie's afraid of the big pool - she sticks with her kiddie pool. I think the only reason why she did it was that she couldn't see the water - we'd just finished covering it and she kind of just walked right off the deck onto the cover. When the water started to come up around her she froze, as did mi madre. I ran up onto the deck and jumped in the pool to haul her out and and soon as that was done, I cracked up - it was fucking hilarious. I realize it's not, but once you know she's fine - you have to laugh. Needless to say, she was quiet the rest of the day.

2. I thought I'd lost my keys on campus the other day. I mean I DID lose my keys. I got back to my car to leave to go work out before swim class on Tuesday and my car keys were not on my key ring. It was a pretty easy fix, AMO came and got me and took me to the apartment to get my spare set, but had I not had a spare set, I would've been screwed. When I came into work today though, here they were - they must've fallen off before I left here for class. Whew!

Sorry if you didn't enjoy my stories or my update. I'm at work. I'm bored. And I really don't want to study vocab.

Thank you, thank you, and have a great day. :)

Sep. 5th, 2005 @ 09:20 am RaNDomNESs
Current State of Mind: tired
I'm at work... again. I just checked my calendar because I couldn't really remember the last day I had off from work and it appears that since August 15th I've had one full day off work. That was the first day of classes last Monday. My next one isn't going to be until next Monday the 12th. Sweet. I just wanted to share. I'm not complaining exactly - I'm just... tired.

Yesterday was a very unproductive/productive day. I got shit done - I cleaned, did homework, etc., but honestly feel on the whole I didn't do much. I went back to bed at 11 after I got out of work which was quite nice. I slept until about 1ish then got up and started cleaning. At 2 I ran into work to give a girl a lunch break cuz she was double shifted and I decided to be nice then went back to finish cleaning. I did some homework and at some point the afternoon disappeared and I was trying to find people to go out with. I ended up having a quiet night at home, which was completely necessary. I didn't really have a busy weekend, but I've just been running on little sleep. I worked at 7 on Thursday, drank and stayed up late that night, worked at 7 on Friday, stayed up late, worked at 7 on Saturday, got wasted and went out again that night, worked at 7 yesterday and then again today. 5 fucking days in a row and tomorrow makes 6. I think I sold my soul and don't know it.

Anywho, 2 things to update about. The more I think about the boy the more I decide - and this can apply to all boys, but I've just been thinking about this one the most - that if he is really into this girl Jen, which I think I would know by now, but maybe not, then there's absolutely no way he and I would've ever possibly worked. She and I are so different from each other. I need to remember that if a guy's into a girl completely opposite of me then it would've been miserable for both of us if anything had happened. Completely obvious, but sometimes easy to forget.

Brandon - the online boy - and I chatted online on Saturday when I got home from tailgate. I don't remember what we talked about. I don't think I said anything I should have or did something I regret so that's good. We chatted online yesterday too. He seems like a very nice guy, but I'm still wary of the whole situation. The last email he sent me said that he had a few days off this week and that maybe if we talked more and if I was comfortable with it we could hang out. HMMMM. I finally sent him some recent pictures yesterday and hopefully he'll shut up now. I mean it's nice to hear that someone thinks you're attractive, but some of what he says makes me uncomfortable because I don't know how seriously to take him. He made a comment about it not taking much to get me drunk because of how small I am (he was making fun of me for being drunk on saturday). I seriously think that he didn't look closely enough at the pictures, but whatever. He also could be saying these things thinking it's what I want to hear. Either way, I'm walking carefully.

I'm just finishing up at work and then headed to Meijer to pick up some birdseed for my sister - it's always nice when she's so practical and specific on what she wants for her birthday! Then it's off to OE for dinner and laundry! :)